I need to see it for myself!

Today is the last day of the month, and I went to go weigh-in at Weight Watchers (WW) just to see where I was...actually, I'm lying..I kinda had an idea as to where I was on the scale, as I get on the scale every morning. **sidebar: I get on the scale every morning because it keeps me accountable to everything that I eat....but that's what works for me..you have to find what keeps you on the straight an narrow.
Anyways I digress... Now, I know I was about a pound above my goal weight (my at home scale). When I got to weight watchers though, I was .8 above my goal weight (yippee for the minus .2). Now, I am a life-time member at WW, and so that means I can only be 2lbs above or under my goal weight...but I wasn't nervous at all. When it comes down to it I know what I need to do to lose the weight if I really want too.  The WW rep was like are you sure you want the print out...and I said yup.  My only response was that...sometimes you just need to see it. I needed to see that I since last month, I had gained 2.6 lbs. I needed to visually see the the plus sign with those numbers behind it. Do I look good...yes...can anyone tell...no...only my husband and I discuss my weight (and its not in that demeaning way)...he's just my bestie and we make it into a game lol.  I needed to see the plus sign as a reminder to not get comfortable or lax.

I've noticed with the planning of my forthcoming album release party, Dosage III: The Time to B.E., I've a been a bit on edge, stressed, restless, and a bit lax as it comes to food. Check out the flyer.

In fact, I've realized that I've been trying to cram so much in the day, in preparation for this album release, that often times I forget to eat. What happens when you forget to eat? You're starving. What happens when you're starving? Your liable to eat anything in sight. I don't need to say what happens when you eat everything in sight lol. So to sum it up, what I'm trying to say is sometimes we get stressed and then we put what we know to the side and go with the feelings. This is an area that I've been constantly working on, battling the feelings and not allowing them to control my decisions. So I weighed in not because I didn't know where I was...but because I wanted the print-out. It let me know that 2.6  gain  in one month can continue to the next month if I let it. Think about it...2.6 every month for the next 6 months month is 15 lbs or so. As for me...that's not an option. I got my anchor my little print-out to catapult to do something about it.

I would love to hear your thoughts:)

By the way...make sure you come out to the party lol:)

NEW Blog B.E!!

I'm just an average person (not really average lol) who found herself battling this same issue for years---> the issue of the yo-yo diet. Since I can remember, I 've never been skinny and I've always had an ample supply of butt (buttocks for the prim and proper lol) for myself and for others. So since high school, I have done that tug of war with the scale.

I was 130 lbs leaving high school, 145 lbs my sophomore year in college (Lets go Pitt!), 145-150 lbs thru my grad school years up until the age of 28. Then I reached my highest weight ever at 162 lbs at the young age of 29!!! For me, the 162 lbs and the emerging double chin was enough for  me. Don't get me wrong, I was still cute but I had come to terms that I was the weight of my grandmother when she was 62 years old at the tender age of 29. I didn't like the direction I was headed in. Most of all, I didn't like that I had failed at being consistent and that often times I would quit....I'd go for a while...be good...avoid eating sweets...exercise for a month...and then when I didn't see the results fast enough..I QUIT!! I went back to what I was doing before and this cycle repeated forever!!

 Many of us have been in that situation, so I figured  I would write about my journey and the things I learned along the way in hopes that maybe it would help or inspire others to be empowered to take charge of their own journey.  You see, my favorite flower is a sunflower and what I like about sunflowers is that you can add a little dye to the water and it'll change the color of the sunflower:) (thats how we get the reds, the blues, the purples, etc)....so pretty....so thats the goal here...add a little change here and there and witness the beautiful difference of becoming your own unique sunflower:)