Summer COnfessions 2012

I admit,that over the last couple of days.... (*ahem* clears throat)...I meant the last couple of weeks, the consecutive sunny weather days and smell of barbecue has brought out every crave in my body.  I  salivate just thinking about what summer means to me. LOL. I mean seriously, my thoughts are of crabs, watermelon, Rita's Gelati, McDonald's vanilla cone, barbecue chicken, ribs, crabs, slurpees, fireballs, burnt hot dogs, shrimp, Chick Fila Milk Shakes, cinnamon toast crunch....hmmm and am I forgetting anything...oh yeah crabs and uhhh crabs!!! Lol!

So all  the above has been on my mind...amongst other things (buying a new house, being a mother, pursuing music, coordinating performances, selling albums (*sidebar* my new album, Dosage III: The Time to B.E. is on iTunes get it today http://itunes.apple.com/us/album/dosage-iii-the-time-to-b.e./id525731698).  Ha Ha, back to what I was saying. I don't know why summer equals great food to me, but I confess I've been giving in to almost every craving. Then it hit me. I've been a bit overwhelmed by my emotions lately. Honestly, I've been stressed and its easy to fall into old habits when you're stressed. So I craved all the foods that make me do the "happy food dance" to take the focus off of whatever i'm feeling emotionally. I know this isn't the first time that I've written about emotional eating...and this here prob won't be my last.  I'm learning how to master this thing.  I will say that that other night, instead of reaching for my little night time cinnamon toast crunch snack, I put on my workout clothes and walked on the treadmill for an hour.  I didn't walk at a super fast pace, but I just walked and listened to music. I allowed the music to take me down different memories and I laughed and just walked off the blues and stressors. I needed that moment to feel and get moving. So sometimes when you crave all of your favorites...ask yourself, do i really want this or am I using this to make me feel good temporarily. Am I the only one who has been there? Let me know your thoughts:)

You can even see the difference in these before and after workout pics.

What They Don't Tell You About Losing Weight!

This past week, I did an interview to promote my forthcoming album, Dosage III: The Time to B.E. and during the interview I made a comment..."I lost 48 lbs...now when people see me..they are like..hey, you look like? who are you..." Yes....I feel like that is the story my life.  I joke about it during the video, but honestly speaking, it is definitely an adjustment and was quite hurtful in the beginning (and I'm still getting used to it). Yes, it's great to lose weight...but I think...in fact, I know, that I was unprepared for people's responses and the emotions that come along with losing weight.

People don't share that side of it. They don't tell you how to adjust to getting used to a new body or losing some of your prized positions (my boobs lol...which if you know me, you know those were my favorites lol). They don't talk about the adjustment you have to make in your mind when you're used to being a certain way for years. Like your mind has to catch up with your weight-loss so you can begin to see yourself differently.  I don't think I ever talked about it on my blog...only amongst my close friends.

Imagine this, you are out on the music scene, and when people say your name...Green Tea...there are puzzled looks or questionable looks as if you are an imposter of the artist Green Tea. If I could share how many times, I've said, "Yeah it's me, I just lost a little weight,"  I think I'd be rich...or how many times I'd say hello to my fellow artist peers and they don't know who I am. ..the surprised..."oh Hey" (talk about feeling invisible).  It's not only the stares though, its the comments, "ooh your beautiful now, " its the increase in flattery, etc. all that. I was just at a salad bar of a restaurant the other day, and a guy there at the salad bar was like..."girl you tiny, put some pasta on your plate." Believe it or not that was  his attempt to pose flattery or establish small talk to get my phone #.  As my friend Nicole would say, Boy By!  So its stuff like that I laugh off, but they do have a bit of sting here and there. In fact, as an artist I stopped going out as much because I just didn't want to deal with it...the stares, explanations, etc. Afterall, I'm like where y'all been?... I just lost weight, I've been beautiful and all those other things....dang, what was I before, to y'all.  But, what I realize is that people will be people and the show will go on with or without you. So I just wanted to share that the process of losing weight isn't over when you get to your goal...it's still a journey and  a process. I'm adjusting and working towards having my mind and body be on the same page and I think that's something that isn't quite shared or talked about as often. So that's the skinny on what they don't tell you about losing weight.

Let me know your thoughts:) & please encourage others to join the blog:)

I need to see it for myself!

Today is the last day of the month, and I went to go weigh-in at Weight Watchers (WW) just to see where I was...actually, I'm lying..I kinda had an idea as to where I was on the scale, as I get on the scale every morning. **sidebar: I get on the scale every morning because it keeps me accountable to everything that I eat....but that's what works for me..you have to find what keeps you on the straight an narrow.
Anyways I digress... Now, I know I was about a pound above my goal weight (my at home scale). When I got to weight watchers though, I was .8 above my goal weight (yippee for the minus .2). Now, I am a life-time member at WW, and so that means I can only be 2lbs above or under my goal weight...but I wasn't nervous at all. When it comes down to it I know what I need to do to lose the weight if I really want too.  The WW rep was like are you sure you want the print out...and I said yup.  My only response was that...sometimes you just need to see it. I needed to see that I since last month, I had gained 2.6 lbs. I needed to visually see the the plus sign with those numbers behind it. Do I look good...yes...can anyone tell...no...only my husband and I discuss my weight (and its not in that demeaning way)...he's just my bestie and we make it into a game lol.  I needed to see the plus sign as a reminder to not get comfortable or lax.

I've noticed with the planning of my forthcoming album release party, Dosage III: The Time to B.E., I've a been a bit on edge, stressed, restless, and a bit lax as it comes to food. Check out the flyer.

In fact, I've realized that I've been trying to cram so much in the day, in preparation for this album release, that often times I forget to eat. What happens when you forget to eat? You're starving. What happens when you're starving? Your liable to eat anything in sight. I don't need to say what happens when you eat everything in sight lol. So to sum it up, what I'm trying to say is sometimes we get stressed and then we put what we know to the side and go with the feelings. This is an area that I've been constantly working on, battling the feelings and not allowing them to control my decisions. So I weighed in not because I didn't know where I was...but because I wanted the print-out. It let me know that 2.6  gain  in one month can continue to the next month if I let it. Think about it...2.6 every month for the next 6 months month is 15 lbs or so. As for me...that's not an option. I got my anchor my little print-out to catapult to do something about it.

I would love to hear your thoughts:)

By the way...make sure you come out to the party lol:)

I forgot about me!

So much time has passed, since I last wrote here. Please forgive me! I've missed you all! So much has happened and has changed since last year....its amazing. I think whats most amazing tho is that as things have been changing and happening...I, somewhere along the way, forgot some of the most simplest things that bring me joy. 

I didn't realize it until now....as I  was just going with the flow of things...becoming a robot. It wasn't until I had given out a homework assignment about taking a picture of your most colorful plate that I realized what I was missing.

I was missing savoring my most favorite meal of the day, breakfast.  When I sat down to take a picture of my breakfast, it triggered all the happy moments when I would sit down and eat breakfast. I know it may seem trivial to some, but I find pleasure in making breakfast for myself. It was my little me time where I said, Tekeah, I value you soooo much that  I am going to make you breakfast:)...it was my own personal date with myself....and yesterday showed me how much I had been neglecting my little date with myself.  So today, I say I'm recommitting myself to my morning breakfast and taking time out for me. I must remind myself to treat myself well and to be kind to myself.

Whats your favorite meal of the day and are you taking time out to pause and enjoy it?